poetry

There is no beauty without some strangeness
— Edgar Allan Poe

Work in progress.

Do you like the taste of yourself?


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The Full Weight

A week or so after the funeral

I opened my Dad’s bureau to borrow

one of his shirts, as was my habit.

 

The Giants jersey held to my chest,

a brief inhale to catch any trace of his smell.

 

There was none.

 

The jersey took on a soft shape

as my eyes blurred.

 

I held the jersey to my face.

 

The scent of Tide greeted me

like a middle finger.

 

One blink.

The jersey got wet.

 

A paralyzing pause took hold,

pregnant with the realization that he would never

ask for it back.

 

I close the bureau

and walk out the bedroom,

jersey crumpled in hand.


Facelift

Taut, simple dry with little scars

I am beautiful.

 

Twitching slow twitch upward spasmodic turn

I am smiling.

 

Made in China dew moisturizer-enhanced

I am glowing.

Eyebrows static nowhere to go, can’t go

I am feeling

                        anything

And nothing

Outside too much pain within.

Keep it there, outside: I’m beautiful dammit.

 

I am perfectly falling apart.